Hi there! My name is Tammy Jo. I have two children and have been married for just about 16 years. Yes, you can call me “Tammy”, but my friends call me “Tammy Jo”. I tend to have a qwirky sense of humor.
I met my husband before I decided to follow Jesus, and the Lord used my husband to teach me to hope for something good. My husband is a good man. He has been very patient and kind to me especially in the early years of our marriage, when the horror of my childhood very nearly caused me to lose my mind.
I didn’t grow up in church but due to a few scattered visits to churches here and there, I learnt a little about Jesus. My younger days were spent seeking Him in a “spying out” way, trying to catch a glimpse of Who He is while staying hidden from Him in fear of being rejected.
In the early years of my marriage I began attending a church and reading the Bible. The people there were kind to me and my growing family. My new found relationship with the Lord quickly became a love affair with religiousity, and “Church” became my god. I didn’t know how to trust the Lord’s love for me without trying to be perfect. After 8 years, I realized I had become a pharisee. I began studying the Bible with fresh eyes and a clean mind, trying to hear what the Lord was saying to me instead of trying to make sure I was right. If you are so afraid of being wrong, you are always trying to prove that you are right. One Sunday, as I left the church parking lot I heard God clear as day say “You’re done here”. What do you do when you hear God in such a way? Say what you will about whether God speaks directly to us or not; but, I know what I heard. So began my journey of losing me.
It’s been about 6 years now and I am thankful that God reached down from heaven, picked me up out of the miasma of doubt and fear, and washed me off. This blog is NOT a place for arguing about doctrine or bashing other churches. The church I spent 8 years at has members that love the Lord just like I do and when we all get to heaven, what a day of rejoicing that will be!